Shadows of the bright sunlit day...
haunting me for almost from the moment it started...
The day i walked in...
all i saw was the shadows walking past me,
pretending not to see I was there
(whereas all those cynical,sex crazed eyes were on me...weighing...measuring...analyzing...)
They made me feel disgusted about myself...
disgraced me of who I was....
degraded me only because I was born this way....
only to make me feel empty & sorry for myself...
just so that i will wallow in self pity...
in order to seek out help from a 'higher being'...
a stronger version of a shadow...
so that the shadow can shine through his eternal flame of glory...
and conquer the shameful world they live in...
(survival of the fittest?? or is it more the survival of the pettiness??)
To glorify that he is the king-to-be....
Almost a shadow in a purple tiara,
fame, power and honour...
who think they have the right to control me, my thoughts, my sanity...
a throne seek ed out by all shadows...
just to show that they are the god given gifts to the world...
the real thing with the right mind to change the world...
but once the sun goes down...shadows disappear....
darkness overcomes the misery and the emptiness...
till a new day begins...
where the sun shines throughout the day...
where me and only me stands alone...
smiling to myself...
that I was smart enough...
never to choose a shadow to be my guardian..
never to let them reach out to me and grab my soul....
never to choose to be a shadow in a purple tiara...
